Many of us are thinking that God indeed are merciful and gracious. Jacob uses method that seemingly unethical to get the blessing that is not rightfully his. But God gave to him still.
Wrestling with the Angel, his socket of the hip was wrenched.
Result? he has to limped for the rest of his life. Because of this limp he has to be humbled for the rest of his life unto God.because of this limp, he has to lean and rely unto God for the rest of the life.
What is the limp in my life? what is that one thing that I can be so proud of to say that " i am weak therefore i can be strong in God". When things are done, it will point man to God and not me. I have finally found that limp and it does help me realise my continous need to rely unto God.
I went to jog with Abigail yesterday, I shared with her something that God spoke to me.When I realise that "limp" in my life, I realise there is a need to rely unto God regularly and daily. Not only when times are bad.. or when i feel like it... or when my time is too busy, I will just compromise my daily union with God. But is a realization that you need to rely unto God, it becomes a need.. not just a want..it becomes your means of survival.... because you know that your life is mark by God to live for a greater cause and for a greater purpose. When you realise that God's burden start to grow in your heart. Serving, church planting is no longer just a good deeds nor doing alone.. but you start to seek for greater and deeper understanding and conviction about it from God. YOu just want to know what God thinks and His burden.
These few days is not a easy days for me as having a few issue in family, but precisely God uses this environment to show me who I am inside and the "quality" in me.
1.Do I really have that overflowing love from God that embraces all and covers all? How much I able to love the unlovable with the love of God that is in me.I want to love my parents more and really help them. i need God strength to not be affected by them and having that ability to help them. To see God to be in our family. Spirit of God to dwell in the Lim's family. But one good thing is that because of my situation at home, my sister want to bring my niece to my church!! I am so glad. Cause when the kids come, the parents will come! I am glad that God uses me to reach out to my sister family first. Still praying for God to help me in my family
God .....
-exchange my fear with Faith
-Exchange my weakness with your strength
-Not to love with my own ability, but fill me with your Agape Love that fills with power and grace and peace
2. Temasek polytechnic.. I really believe God wants to bring His "kingdom" into the polytechnic. For God came down.. and same thing.. For God will GO into TP and change the generation of students... Its not about them coming to us.. but is about bringing God's spirit into the campus. For this is about " His kingdom comes, thy will be done" God's seed is in every of the TP student in Hope poly ministry. And we will carry that seed and plant it in TP and saturate it to see transformation in TP students life.
God.. I prayed that you will
- Let all the TP leaders and students to understand that God's seed is in them and we will bring this seed to be planted and grow in TP
- to bring God into TP campus and see life transformation
- Clubs, study group, cell group etc.. we will see all these establish in TP campus by mid next year, its abt lifestyle... God love every area of our life. CHristianity is FUN and EXCITING! It will be done.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Lesson 1 : DUN tell me what I CANNOT DO.. Tell me WHAT I CAN DO!!
Just came back from running.... It really feel good running and getting yourself super duper tired and relax.Just feel good about that.
Actually i am getting rather anxious and same time excited over the new job that I will be working in this coming monday.. excited because this job is obviously a job that God gave.. anxious is because I am worried that I cant cope with my health and also my ability...
obviously, at this moment, I am not the only one that is anxious about my ability to cope, My parents is MUCH more anxious then me.
Have you ever experience when people start to keep nagging you with words or comment telling you of what you fall short of, remind you of what to be fearful of and telling you stuff that reminds you of all the negative things that have happened? I have this group of people around me.. and challenging to speak, they are with me in my very house.. they are none other then my parents themselves...
Sometimes, you cant help, but be affected by all those comments... negative feelings or fear will grip you tightly.But truly thank God... I have the word with me.
Was reading the luke and one of the chapter that talks about the storm that actually rock the boat of jesus' and his disciple and one of the, shouted towards jesus saying that they are going to die as the storm is huge, and what did jesus says? he didnt say " man.. we are going to die for real this time, let me pray and ask God(the father) to calm this storm for us" but instead he calm the storm instantly and rebuked the rest and say " where is your faith" ( in luke 8:25)
This passage just reminded me about " where is my faith?" when things around me seemingly big and too much for me to handle? or out of my control? where is my faith?
Choosing to believe in what God can do and has done is important. There are many many thoughts that went through our mind every day.. did we harnass our ability to think of what " can be done" or we spent time entertaining the thoughts of " what cant be done"?
Sometimes i realise that I spend too much time thinking of what CANT Be done then thinking of the things that CAN BE DONE... I really want to make good use of what God has given to me" my ability to think to harnass the best thing that God want to give in my life. God's word transform life, but first it is to transform my thought life first.
My life should be mark with what God think I can do and not what I think i cant do....
I am still growing much in this area. I really know that God want to do something big in my life therefore the training is worth it.
Start to realise that I cant live without the word of God, to come and add faith and strength in every step of my life, this is what I really dig for.. though not easy, but yet knowing that the outcome of the "new" Nel is worth it.
Actually i am getting rather anxious and same time excited over the new job that I will be working in this coming monday.. excited because this job is obviously a job that God gave.. anxious is because I am worried that I cant cope with my health and also my ability...
obviously, at this moment, I am not the only one that is anxious about my ability to cope, My parents is MUCH more anxious then me.
Have you ever experience when people start to keep nagging you with words or comment telling you of what you fall short of, remind you of what to be fearful of and telling you stuff that reminds you of all the negative things that have happened? I have this group of people around me.. and challenging to speak, they are with me in my very house.. they are none other then my parents themselves...
Sometimes, you cant help, but be affected by all those comments... negative feelings or fear will grip you tightly.But truly thank God... I have the word with me.
Was reading the luke and one of the chapter that talks about the storm that actually rock the boat of jesus' and his disciple and one of the, shouted towards jesus saying that they are going to die as the storm is huge, and what did jesus says? he didnt say " man.. we are going to die for real this time, let me pray and ask God(the father) to calm this storm for us" but instead he calm the storm instantly and rebuked the rest and say " where is your faith" ( in luke 8:25)
This passage just reminded me about " where is my faith?" when things around me seemingly big and too much for me to handle? or out of my control? where is my faith?
Choosing to believe in what God can do and has done is important. There are many many thoughts that went through our mind every day.. did we harnass our ability to think of what " can be done" or we spent time entertaining the thoughts of " what cant be done"?
Sometimes i realise that I spend too much time thinking of what CANT Be done then thinking of the things that CAN BE DONE... I really want to make good use of what God has given to me" my ability to think to harnass the best thing that God want to give in my life. God's word transform life, but first it is to transform my thought life first.
My life should be mark with what God think I can do and not what I think i cant do....
I am still growing much in this area. I really know that God want to do something big in my life therefore the training is worth it.
Start to realise that I cant live without the word of God, to come and add faith and strength in every step of my life, this is what I really dig for.. though not easy, but yet knowing that the outcome of the "new" Nel is worth it.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Old times~
Guess, why i choose this title?? answer- because I simply love it!
I really love the whole idea about "making-lemonade-out-of-the-lemon"kinda thing.
Its simple positive and lovely dont you think so? When the heaven throw you a lemon, make a lemonade and enjoy it!!. If something bad happens, make something good out of it. When you have an embarassing moment, have a good laugh at yourself. When something happened that seemingly broke your heart, thrash your soul, simply learn something from it and move on stronger from there.
There are many times that I have make an embarassment out of myself, BUT THANK GOD! I managed to laugh( good laugh!) at myself ..
So now you know why I simply love this title!
Ok, now ..the real thing....
TIME flies.. .. REALLY FLIES.. Its like coming to an end to 2008 liao...waaaa.. feel old.. I will be 26 next year liao... REALLY SCARY.. ( but thank God I LOOK YOUNG ^^ ) there are just so many thing sthat actually happened this year.. This year is really a year that alot of things happened. Esepcially my insomia issue .. this period of time really make me realise how weak I am and my precious friends around me. REally thank you all ( you know who you all are)..But this period of time I really get to know myself more and rely unto God even more..Great adventure with God.. but I know there is more to come still.. woohoo...
anyway...
My two DEAR friends are in army now.. Just enlisted.. MR jovin Lim and Mr ben tan ( da cow) lol.. man.. They are in army now.. BOtak.. LOL..I was just joking with Kok leng that next year he and nehemiah is going in army also.. then all my musios will be botak.,..then we can call " the Botak Band" lol.. cool right.. a new trend in band members.. the "cool botak" !!Really misses them.. haha.. it feels different with out them around.Really treasure them alot as friends and co labourer in christ
our picture taken in bangkok lst december.. really miss those times..hohoho
anyway.. 3 out of 4 guys are BOTAK now..LOL.. cool right?
oh. just being random... Have been watching ugly betty!! I LOVE THE SHOW.. lol.. betty is just so cool la...^^ .. btw.. a pic that priscilla make for me..
ok...... priscilla say i look like betty....................................................................
anyway.. I hope to blog more often and hopeI will not forget my password to my blog too!! lol...
Blog more substantial stuff tomorrow.. today.. i am just doing some warm up only.. HOHOHO...
Good old timess.. Awwwww...
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